Life so far

By Pamela on Nov 3, 09 07:40 PM in

Hello everyone, thought I had better write something just to let you all know how I am doing.
It's been a rough few weeks I can tell you, I have been through every emotion possible and then some! We are just taking each day as it comes but that hasn't stopped the nightmares! Last week was a bad one as I was just so depressed the whole week and kept thinking about the future! I just want to scream at people when they ask me how I am doing, so have taken to staying at home and avoiding people! I am bottling a lot of it up inside because I feel I can't tell my hubby how I feel because he then feels guilty and apologises!! I mean it's not his fault he has this horrible disease!! The kids don't really understand and I don't want to spoil their lives by constantly crying!! It's really, really tough!
On the plus side we all went to Centerparcs in October for the week and had a brilliant time. The weather was lovely and everyone enjoyed themselves, hubby even managed to chill for a wee while and forget about it all. However when we were away one of my neighbours and her gang of idiots thought it would be amusing to knock my door and run away whilst my sister was house sitting. When that didn't get much response they threw an egg at my front door!! I mean really, what goes on in their pea brains???? I wanted to come home and bang their heads together!! Thankfully there has been no trouble since we came home but I sit at night wondering if it's all going to start up again! My hubby doesn't need the stress of the village idiots tormenting us! Oh to win a few millions on the lottery and move somewhere nice and quiet!
Back to the subject of Centerparcs my mum was telling me that there was a feature on Watchdog about it with regards to their pricing! I have already written emails to them querying how it can be £350 the week before the Scottish holidays and £750 the week of the holidays!! Haven't had a decent reply yet!
Halloween was very quiet, only had 3 people at the door and my mum only had 1! I think most people decided to stay at home and have parties instead, at least it wasn't raining! We've had some torrential rain here! Hedgehog weather - if only we could hibernate for the winter! Just got Bonfire night now and if truth be told I hope it pours down then as I hate fireworks!!! My little dog hates them too and gets into a terrible state when she hears them!
Anyway that's me for now so hope all is well with my fellow bloggers and I hope to catch up with you all soon.
Take care xx


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lorna johnston said:

welcome back pj.
its good to see your blog. missed them.
what a time you are having.
why do you not make a complaint about what is going on?
i know it isn't easy but believe me you cannot go on like that.
been there, got the scars.
go see someone, don't put it off.
listen you just keep in touch and don't feel no one wants to be bothered because that is what we are here for to support you.
talking is good therapy.
tell hubby and kids that lsj blogger is asking for them aye.

Susanas said:

Morning Pam,

This is and will be a very difficult time for all of you but please if you need someone to talk to just email me, hey that goes for hubby too as I know only to well how what happend to me changed my life completely, although different things but same reaction, happy to visit you both and give any support I can xxxx I also have so many friends with organisations that could also help, Pam talking about it will help it won't take it away but you have to be supported through this also very important as it allows you to discuss your own feelings which will enable you in return to help your husband.

Get Centre Parks kicked to the Kirb all places that do this need highlighted.

Glad to see you back hen and keep yer chin up, please feel free to contact me Pam, I check my email 3 times a day regardless of which part of the country I am in xxxxxxxxxxxx

Take Care


lorna johnston said:

got your blog in the sunday mail pj
well done.
we seem to be back on track.
trying to drum up more support and more blogs to keep our wee site going.
take care and like susannas says we are here for you.
that is what the site is all about,

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